The other day Justice asked me if I really pray for a cure everyday.
I told him ofcourse. Daddy and I both do. Not the same time everyday or same manner, but at some point in my day I do.
Sometimes I dont even realize Im doing it.
He says "Mom, maybe youre not praying right? Maybe if we went to a church and prayed GOD, would hear us?".
This is not a religious debate. This is not for anyone to judge wether or not we should take our boys to church/temple.
How do you explain to a child that while prayer, faith, and belief in GOD is so important, you cannot just pray for a cure and it will happen.
I tried to explain GOD gave the scientists the tools and academic smarts to come up with a cure just like he gives us a choice to do right or wrong. But in the end its up to us.
I said it. I even wrote it. But I have to still force myself to believe it.
The truth is in my humble opinion as much prayer as there is out there for a cure theres just as much if not more evil profiting off these diseases. Yes, good does triump over evil but it cant be done overnight.
I have so much hope and love in my heart. I raise my children the same way. To do good and good will come to you. But how do you explain to an 8 year old that the one thing he wants more than anything is even out of GODS hands?
I teach my boys that those who do good will have good happen to them. Justice challenges that and asks if that true what did he do to deserve Type 1 Diabetes?
I ofcourse try and explain the best I can without making him feel like theres no hope and he says...
"Well then I pray that maybe for one day GOD will let me live just one day without Diabetes. Just be normal. I deserve that."
He does. They all do.
I still pray on it. Everyday.