But I got to thinking....
How things affect you can soley depend on how you percieve them.
Diabetes sucks. We know this. Its bullshit. I hate it. You hate it. Our kids hate it.
But tonight as much as I may want to write all the negative, all the things I hate the most I realized my mood, Justices mood, my feelings can be shifted If I change my perception.
That doesnt mean all of a sudden bgs will be perfect, sensors without error, or sites without flaw.
It doesnt mean I dont wish Diabetes didnt exist or that I despite IT any less.
It means that I can see the good in everything that is so clearly and obviously...bad.
We have strips.
We have an endless supply of meters.
We have a pump.
We have a CGM.
We have sensors.
We have sites.
We have infusion sites.
We have cartridges.
We have iv preps.
We have skin tac.
We have iv 3000.
We have glucose tabs.
We have juice.
We have tummietotes.
We have ketone blood strips.
We have a scale.
WE HAVE A FRIG FULL OF INSULIN.
We have the DOC. We have each other.
As much as you/we may hate needing to have all of this stuff, we would hate much more to not have access to it.
To not have our beautiful children laying by our sides.
To not be able to treat that low or correct that high.
To change that site
To check those ketones.
I am happy. Diabetes and all. I am happy and forever thankful that I have everything I need to keep my son here with me. To be able to know I can care for him and his disease.
To know when times are tough I have all of you to turn to.
So many out there dont. Mothers are kissing their babies good night without knowing if they will see them again in the morning.
Adults are begging in the streets for something to eat or for money to get their meds.
Parents are mourning the loss of their child due to inoperable cancers ravaging their childs bodies.
Familes are dealing with all of this with no support system.
Today I count my blessings. Diabetes and all.
Can you see it?