I started this post last week, and since my modem has crashed. Please bare with me this week as I blog from my phone. (So I cant add my links to her blog. If anyone can help with that, I would appreciate it!).
Im excited to be part of Karen from Bitter Sweet's creative "baby"! D BLOG WEEK!
Todays topic: Admiring Differences.
For me this was a no brainer. Ever since I started my blog almost a year ago, I have always been drawn to those written by adult Type 1s. Specifically those diagnosed as kids.
A glimpse into the future. Being able to see what mistakes I am perhaps making. What things I need to start doing or stop doing. How I can make sure my son not only leads a healthy life physically, but mentally and emotionally as well.
If theres one thing I can always count on from these amazing PWDs, its support, and genuine, sincere, love. They not only know what it was like to "be" Justice, but care.
I can be a little OCD, a little overbearing, and even a little obsessive. I know right!? ;)
Well after a short yet sweet tweet conversation with one of my personal favorite D bloggers, good friend and PWD Scott, I realized I need to lighten the f--k up. No, not be careless with bgs, or management, but NOT place blame on myself. Not get so caught up in that high from the stupid pasta, that I don't enjoy Justices smile, or laugh.
Scott was diagnosed at age 8 which is the same age Justice is now. His sense of humor, brutal honesty, and dashing good looks (hes a heart breaker ladies), reminds of of Justice.
I want Justice to see that Diabetes does not dictate you are or become. I needed to see that I am doing the very best I can. If I dont see that, and am constantly stressed Justice will pick up on it.
This advice helped tremendously. I am still crazy mostly. Still aiming for the best numbers, and best control for J, because well, I'm his mother, his pancreas, his protector, I need to keep is eyes, liver, kidneys, heart, and limbs safe.
But I am still mommy. I still need to be able to laugh, sing, dance, smile and enjoy all that comes with every moment of having this amazing child in my life.
I cannot let D take that away.
So while I know what it is mother,and nurture a type 1, I do not know what its like growing up as one. I am grateful to have so many wonderful role models for not only Justice, but myself to learn from.
To Scott and all the other PWD I thank you. For supporting us, uplifting us, and showing us how to smile and push through not just for our kids, but oursleves too.