Wow, I haven't blogged in so long and I think people have stopped reading my blog, which makes have a sad.
It started because I was locked out of blogger which is why I didn't write at first, ( and haven't been able to access my blog reading list and comment as me, preventing me from reading blogs i love) but then I realized I haven't had much to write about.
Why is that?
I feel normal.
Not in all aspects of my life, but at least when it comes to Diabetes. I never ever thought I would say that.
The pain I had when I first started blogging just isn't there anymore.
Wait. Rewind. Rephrase. I feel pain, I still hate when J is low and says he can't feel his legs, or ketones are so bad his tummy hurts. But I don't feel the same hollow sorrow I did throughout the day.
Diabetes has become part of our normal.
I have learned to accept that it is here to stay. Shit I mean I pray for a cure everyday, and have dedicated my volunteer time to JDRF because I believe it will happen someday, but until it does I will not let it steal my joy ( Thanks for that Wendy!).
My son will live, thrive, smile, play, be happy, and not despite diabetes but with it and some days because of it.
So I haven't blogged, I haven't needed to empty my emotions on here like I used.
Which is good I guess.
But I feel like I've abandoned a baby.
So I'm going to try my best to blog once a week about diabetes related joys, activities, and what I'm doing with JDRF.
Because that is our new normal and I have finally accepted it.